Total pages in book: 43
Estimated words: 39123 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 196(@200wpm)___ 156(@250wpm)___ 130(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 39123 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 196(@200wpm)___ 156(@250wpm)___ 130(@300wpm)
“I—I’ll be back later,” Chase rasped as he walked over to the back door and flung it open. I watched him go, my chest aching and tears welling in my eyes. I looked at Trigger, my lips trembling. The last time Chase had left me like that, he’d gone down a road of self destruction, fucking any woman he could get his dick into and drinking so much, he made himself sick.
“Do something,” I choked out.
Trigger sighed and shook his head, pressing his lips to mine in a soft kiss. “He needs space, sunshine. If he said he’ll be back later, then he will,” he assured me. “He loves you too much to break his word to you.” He blew out a soft sigh, looking down at himself and the mess between my thighs. “I need to clean you up.”
A tear rolled down my cheek, and I reached up, quickly swiping it away. Trigger cupped my face in his hands and tilted my head back so I was looking up at him. “It’ll be okay,” he soothed.
Why was my gut telling me otherwise?
I clenched my keys in my hand as I stared at my dark store. It was already after ten, and Chase still wasn’t back, and no one had heard from him. Trigger had tried calling him numerous times, but his phone was just going to voicemail. Both of us were wound tightly, worried and fearful for Chase’s safety.
The only time we’d heard from him was five minutes after he left, and that message had been to Trigger, telling him to stay with me and he’d be back later after he cleared his head so we could all talk.
But it was later. And he wasn’t back yet. And he wasn’t at the clubhouse. Trigger had checked numerous times.
“Trigger…” My voice trembled, fear clawing at my throat. He directed me toward his bike, his jaw clenched so tightly, I was afraid his molars would crack under the pressure. “We need to find him. Something is wrong.”
Trigger nodded. “I need to get you home first, Sophia. I won’t have you out in the middle of this.”
“What?” I snapped, getting angry. I quickened my pace to catch up to him. “He—”
Trigger spun around to face me and roughly gripped my upper arms, gently shaking me. I flinched back from his cold, dark gaze. He’d never looked at me like that before. Like he was a monster. My stomach dropped to my feet, and ice filled my veins.
“I cannot focus on finding him if I have to worry about you, too,” he snapped, his voice harsh. It shut down my argument quickly. “Let me get you home, and then, I’ll get with Scorpion and start a search party. But you will sit your ass at that clubhouse and wait. Understand?”
I jerkily nodded my head. He pressed a hard kiss to my forehead before turning and straddling his bike. He handed me his helmet, and I strapped it to my head. It wasn’t a great fit, but it was safer than not wearing one at all.
Once I slid on behind him, I squeezed his hips with my thighs and wrapped my arms tight around his waist, resting my head on his back.
The roar of his engine was loud in the otherwise silent air, and at that moment, I felt the absence of Chase deeply. Because whenever Trigger was in town, he always rode ahead of us, leading the way home.
But tonight… Tonight, Chase wasn’t with us.
6
Chase
I’d driven way further than I’d intended. What was supposed to be a quick, one hour ride to clear my head, sort through my turmoil, and try to work out my feelings when it came to Trigger had turned into three hours, and I was now outside of Satan’s Worshippers’ territory, which was dangerous considering the Russians were riding our asses and throwing threats around again.
I was a fucking idiot. Sophia would be closing the store soon, and she would be worried sick when I didn’t show up. I only hoped Trigger had stayed with her like I’d asked. Despite the extremely long drive, I still didn’t know what I was going to do about my... My what? Gay-for-you moment? It was the only thing that made any sense. I wasn’t attracted to any other men. Trigger was the first, and it looked like he’d be the only man I was attracted to.
What was I supposed to do with that? What did my feelings mean for me and Trigger? For our relationship with Sophia?
I’d been ignoring all the signs for a while now. Refused to acknowledge my body’s response to Trigger. Made every excuse I could for the way I was feeling about him. But I couldn’t do that any longer. Not now that Sophia and Trigger had both seen how I felt. Had seen everything I’d been trying to hide and ignore since I’d started... changing.