Total pages in book: 109
Estimated words: 104252 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 521(@200wpm)___ 417(@250wpm)___ 348(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 104252 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 521(@200wpm)___ 417(@250wpm)___ 348(@300wpm)
“Hop on. I’ll carry you the rest of the way.”
“Dude, I have your shoes on. I’m not about to make you carry me while I have them on my feet.”
“Hop on, Amina.”
I frown and do as he says. I need to place distance between us. I’ve told this lie that’s hanging between us for a good reason.
He carries me the rest of the way as we continue our conversation. By the time we get to my building, I feel like I’m hanging with an old friend.
Once outside the doors to my building, he puts me down on my feet. I take my heels from his hands and drop them on the ground. Then I go to take his shoes off and step into mine.
He shoves his feet into his boots and stands staring down at me. It’s like he’s holding me in a trance. I can’t look away. He lifts a hand to tuck my hair behind my ear.
“I want to hang out again. When can I see you?”
“Cam … I can’t. I like you, but—”
My phone rings, cutting me off. I pull it out and find Dez’s name screaming back at me. This is why nothing can happen between us. I need to be rid of Dez first.
I go to look up to finish my words, but Cam crushes my lips with his, cutting my words off. I grasp the front of his shirt with my hands as he wraps his arms around me. This kiss is better than the last one.
He inhales me like a much-needed breath. I’m left breathless when he breaks the kiss. His intense blue grays seem to only be blue now.
“You feel this connection like I do. Don’t shut me out. Let’s explore it.
“I was in a rush earlier because of the alcohol. Now that I’ve sobered up, I see that was some dick shit. I’ve dated the same girl since I was fourteen.
“I might not be great at this shit, so I’m going to slow down because I want to get to know you more. Let me have your number. We can talk or text or whatever.”
“Cam—”
“Take my number.”
“Why me? You’re about to be a star on campus. If you’ve been with one girl since you were fourteen this is the time to explore, not hook up with the first girl you’re attracted to.”
“I’m more than attracted to you. And you just proved my point. I’m headed for the major leagues and you’re still shutting me down. None of that matters to you.
“I just spilled all that to you on the walk here and you’re not giving me that look. You’re trying to run,” he says.
“What look?”
“That ‘Here’s the ticket. This one is going to be a bag. If I fuck him, he’ll be my meal ticket.’”
I laugh. “You’re serious?”
“As fuck. You would be surprised how often I get that look. My own girlfriend had it more times than I’d like to admit. You see me, Cam. I like that about you.”
“Cam, my life is so complicated. I don’t think I can give you more than friendship.”
“I understand complicated, believe me. My life is more than complicated. If that’s all you can give me, I’m willing to take that. I want that.”
“Even if no one can know?”
He looks at me, puzzled. For a moment, I don’t think he’s going to answer. However, he takes in a sharp breath.
“Yeah, there’s something between us. I’ll take a secret friendship. Something tells me it will be worth it in the end. I could use a friend more than you know. Someone outside my world.”
“Okay, Cam. I’ll give you my number.”
“Good,” he says with the brightest smile, those dimples popping like little cheek craters.
I know the moment I give him my number I’ve just changed my life forever.
CHAPTER 8
Guilty Conscience
Kayleen
As I look in the bathroom mirror, I keep wiping at my mouth as if I can wipe what I’ve done away. I keep wiping and wiping and nothing has changed. I feel so guilty and wrong.
“Kay, you all right in there?” JR calls from the other side of the door.
I cover my face and start to sob. He has done nothing wrong. He’s been sweet to me all night.
I don’t know why I thought this was a good idea. Everything was fine until I turned and dropped to my knees for him to pull the condom off and come in my mouth. It’s like the moment his cum hit my tongue and lips, it all became real.
I fucked someone else.
Panic set in and my mind began to race. Will Cam be able to tell? Will my mama find out and kill me?
The worst part is that I liked it. JR was gentle but firm. He’s gifted like Cam in size and skill. However, I wouldn’t say they are the same.