Total pages in book: 100
Estimated words: 96249 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 481(@200wpm)___ 385(@250wpm)___ 321(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 96249 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 481(@200wpm)___ 385(@250wpm)___ 321(@300wpm)
“Phew, child. The lies you tell,” I mutter to myself.
Trevor isn’t going to change. The real thing that’s causing me fear, above all else, is the fact that I want things I’m probably not ready for. And I feel the time coming. You can want something and fear it at the same time.
Suddenly, I hear my sister’s voice in my head. The last thing she said to me before shooing me off to go with Trevor to the cabin.
Don’t be nervous, Cakes. It’s Trev. He’s always gonna put you first. Relax and allow him to take the lead. Just enjoy the time.
As her words fill me, I know what I need to do. I need to find Trev so we can talk this out. I miss him.
Trevor
“This… this is your plan to make up with her?” Tom says incredulously.
“Sure is. It’s going to work too. It has to.”
“If you say so. After visiting ninety-nine places—in the rain—that said no, this better work.”
He’s exaggerating. We’d been to five shops before I got the answer I was looking for. Although it did seem like way more. I was willing to try a hundred more if I had to.
“It will. Now, if this rain would stop so we can get back,” I mutter as I look out at the rain coming down in sheets.
We only need to make it back to the hotel without getting drenched. I know when I get to Lynn, I can fix this. This has to work.
I slept like shit last night. Not having her in my arms, my busted hand, and the thought that I might have hurt her feelings with my words—all of it kept me up last night. I have to make this right.
A smile comes to my face as I think of her reaction to my gift. I can’t wait to see the look on her face. Suddenly, doubt creeps in and settles in my belly like a lump of coal.
I shake it off as fast as it comes. This has to work. I’m not sleeping another night without her, not over those assholes and that stupid bar fight.
“Let’s go,” I say to Tom as the rain slows.
I grab my box and nod at the cashier. I’m grateful they were able to accommodate me. I’d hate to think of the disaster this could have turned out to be if I were left to my own devices.
“If you weren’t my best friend,” Tom mutters as we race from the shop.
“Then you wouldn’t have any friends,” I taunt.
“Neither would you, neither would you.”
I grin and shake my head. For all his griping, he wants me to fix this mess as much as I do. I found him pacing this morning and the first words out of his mouth were to ask what I planned to do.
I plan to get my girl back. That’s what I plan to do. It doesn’t feel right without her by my side. I don’t feel like I’m breathing.
CHAPTER 21
Lost in Thought
Lynn
I turn from Trevor’s hotel room door with my shoulders slumped. There’s no answer. I was sure he and Tom would still be here.
I pull my hands up into the sleeves of my thin sweater and wrap my arms around my middle. I’m so lost in my thoughts; I walk right out into the rain. I stand outside on the curb, looking around, not caring that the rain has picked up and is pouring down on me, soaking my clothes through.
I feel lost. All the pain and emotions I’ve been ignoring come rushing over me. My shoulders shake as a sob rips from my lips.
I must look like I’m crazy, but I don’t care. I’m too numb to care about anything. I close my eyes and tighten my arms around myself to keep my insides in. I can’t help feeling like they’re going to fall out at my feet.
There’s a sound that throws me back in time. I don’t know what it is or where it comes from, but it’s a trigger. I’m in the stable with my sister as she brushes Snow.
“What’s it like?” I asked as I looked at her from my perch on the little stool I brought in with me.
“What’s what like?” she said between cooing at Snow and humming to herself.
It’s the humming that’s brought on my curiosity. She’d been doing so all morning. I knew what she’d been up to.
“You know what I’m talking about. You and Cliff. You two had sex, didn’t you?”
She looked at me and narrowed her eyes. I giggled and tossed some hay at her. I caught her coming into the house late last night. Her dress was on backward and she had this glowing smile on her face.
She sighed and hugged her arms around Snow’s neck. “It was wonderful. I’ve never felt more connected to him. If I ever questioned things before, I know now that he’s the one,” she breathed.