Total pages in book: 141
Estimated words: 135831 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 679(@200wpm)___ 543(@250wpm)___ 453(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 135831 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 679(@200wpm)___ 543(@250wpm)___ 453(@300wpm)
But I have to stay rooted in this moment.
Quickly, I take inventory of the surroundings. How does the table look? Like bamboo. What’s on the walls? They have Japanese art, stylized prints of blue waves and orange line drawings of fish. Where is the door? To the left, past the hostess stand. Crowds stream down the corridor of this complex in the heart of Japantown, a mall of sorts full of sushi, ramen, and shabu-shabu places along with gourmet grocery stores and tchotchke shops. I’m here, not caught in the pull of the past.
I blink away the sting as best I can and meet Max’s gaze. “She was like a sister. I’m an only child and we were best friends since we were kids. We met in kindergarten, and we rented an apartment together here in the city. Before…” I take a deep breath and scan the room again. The art. The table. The door.
“I get it—why it’d hit you hard,” he says, his hand still on my wrist. “I haven’t lost a sibling, but I imagine it must be like having your heart ripped out every time.”
“Yes,” I say, then swallow past the knot of emotions clogging my throat.
His blue eyes are usually piercing, icy even. But now they’re softer, gentler. Filled with heartfelt sympathy. He gives one more squeeze then lets go. My skin feels lonely without his touch.
“Tell me more about this Food Network moan,” he says. It’s asked genuinely, without his usual teasing or taunting—it’s like he really wants to know.
I should move on. Talk to him about my three-step plan for the makeover. But I’m a car, stuck in first gear. Or maybe I don’t want to shift just yet. “She made me watch a ton of cooking shows, so it became this thing we did. Perfecting the orgasmic food moan.”
His eyebrows shoot up, saying tell me more.
I can picture Marie perfectly—her short dark hair, cropped in a pixie cut. Skull earrings crawling up her lobes, right alongside butterflies. “I am a rebel and an animal that won’t hurt you,” she’d said of her favorite jewelry one night when she lounged on the couch in the two-bedroom apartment we shared. Best friends for life. That had been the plan, at least. But later, I learned that skulls and butterflies had more in common than I’d thought—they could both mean a new life, and the life beyond.
I shake off the memory, focusing on the story instead. “Every time she made a new dish—and she was always making new dishes and always saying just try it—if it was good, we’d do the food moan.”
I laugh, and wow that feels surprisingly good, the shift from tears to laughter in a few minutes. “Which is weird, I guess.” I sigh, then shrug. “It was our thing.”
He nods, his eyes serious. “Let’s get a new thing.”
“What?” I ask, like I didn’t hear him right when of course I did. But I didn’t expect him to say that.
“Try a new thing,” he says. “They have a good menu.”
Call me skeptical, but one kind moment does not change the prickly dynamic between us. I’m not his buddy. He’s not mine. We are strictly professional. I don’t want to let him into the food moan world. “So I can food moan?” I ask, my guard all the way up again.
He rolls his eyes, then sears me with them. Now they’re piercing again. Gone is the softness. In its place is the cool, unknowableness of Max Lambert. No wonder he’s so good at playing the grump. He doesn’t act out the role—he lives it. His expression is impenetrable and unflinching for a long beat. But then he shifts again. “Sunshine, I’ve already heard the sound you make when you like something,” he says, his voice deep, raspy, a little smoky—and far too sexy. We’re talking about food, but he’s looking at me like he knows what I’d sound like if he touched me after dark. If he brushed those fingers along my jaw, down my throat, over my collarbone. “I meant…let’s try some new sushi,” he adds.
Right. Yes. Of course. I grab the menu from the holder, and scan it again. But it’s hard to focus with the heat still flaring through me. I even catch the faint scent of his Midnight Flame cologne, and it’s making my mind a little fuzzy as I look at the offerings, barely able to read them.
Focus, girl.
“Have you had octopus?” he asks.
The question grounds me. “Actually, I don’t eat fish. Or meat,” I say.
He peers quickly at the food I ordered. Avocado rolls and cucumber rolls.
With a quick nod, he jumps to the next page, then frowns. “Well, shit.” He looks up, meeting my eyes again. “They only have avocado, cucumber, and asparagus rolls. Also, tamago. You eat eggs?”