Total pages in book: 84
Estimated words: 82109 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 411(@200wpm)___ 328(@250wpm)___ 274(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 82109 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 411(@200wpm)___ 328(@250wpm)___ 274(@300wpm)
My hands shake as I open the letter, I sit on my bedroom floor and lean against my bed and take a deep breath.
My Darling Zoey,
If your reading this letter than the cancer got me and I'm sorry, when I look back at my life I feel blessed for having two beautiful daughters and when I found out about the cancer it scared me, who would look after you, I was angry that I will never see you grow into a woman. I will never see you drive your first car, fall in love or see you graduate high school or college or be there on your wedding day. I won't see you have your own children and I'm sorry. I really did fight hard but my body just didn't want to play ball. Thank you, Zoey, for choosing me as your mother, thank you for loving me, you are an inspiration Zoey you've watched me through this horrible sickness and you have never wavered so thank you.
I know that as you grow your memories of me will become hazy but always remember my darling daughter I Love You Always and that will never fade.
I'm sad that I will not be there to have two o’clock mojitos when your upset or go to the movies or just veg in front of the TV watching trash TV shows, I will miss you Zoey, so some wise words of life, take chances live life because we both know that it will throw you curve balls and I'm sorry I won't be there to help you through, but know that you are strong. I pray you make good decisions in life and experience the most out of it, take a jump Zoey when it comes to love, live life to the fullest take one day at a time but embrace it for all its worth. So, my last words my baby girl I love you from the moon and back with all of my heart, I will love you for eternity and beyond
P.S LIVE, LOVE AND ENJOY LIFE
Love Always Mom xoxo
I sit on the floor for a while and remember my mom her love of life and a tear slides down my face
(knock knock)
“Come in” I say wiping away the tears
“Hay Zoey you ok” Niya asks me, she sees the letter I'm holding and comes in and pulls me in for a hug
“Why? Today” she asks me
“I miss her so much Niya my heart still aches” I let the tears fall and Niya just holds me
“It's ok to miss her Zoey” she lifts my chin up “She's always here” she points to my heart “In there she'll never be gone” I nod as we just sit there.
“Baby, where are you” Colt yells out
“In here Colt” she calls out and he opens the door and sees us sitting on the floor
“Everything ok” he asks looking worried, Niya looks at me
“Yeah Colt everything’s ok” I say looking up at him
“Dinners ready” he says still watching us
“Give us a minute Colt” Niya says
“Ok baby” he closes the door
“Do you need a minute” Niya asks me wiping the tears from my cheek
“Yeah”
“Ok don’t be long” I nod my head
“Niya”
“Yeah”
“Have you read your letter yet” I ask her curious
“No not yet”
“Do you wanna read mine” I ask her but she shakes her head no
“No honey that was to you not me”
“I don't mind” I say and she smiles
“Maybe another time, hay we still have gifts to open and a huge dinner to eat yeah”
“Yeah”
“Come out when you’re ready”
I wipe the tears away from my face and put the letter away knowing I’m going to read it again, I walk out the door and run straight into a hard-huge body and look up (Jordan, dam why do I keep running into him) I know it’s him because he has a little freckle on his neck and a constant frown, I blush (he’s always so serious)
“Sorry” I say and he grunts
“Watch where your walkin’” he says and walks down the hall to the bathroom, I watch him until the door closes those are the first words he’s spoken to me since the Halloween party.
“Zoey” Grace says and I turn to look at her
“Hi”
“He’s hot isn’t he” she says and I blush and she laughs “Don’t worry your secret’s safe with me” she says and winks at me
“What?” I ask her
“The twin” she says
“Jordan” I say and she nods
“Is that which one he was” I nod “Well I can see why you like him”
“I…I…I don’t like him” I lie and she smiles
“Honey it’s ok to like him, a little crush never hurts anyone” just as she says that he comes walking back out of the bathroom again and walks past both of us and I blush again, Grace pats me on the shoulder and winks at me