Total pages in book: 90
Estimated words: 81977 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 410(@200wpm)___ 328(@250wpm)___ 273(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 81977 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 410(@200wpm)___ 328(@250wpm)___ 273(@300wpm)
"I know he already told me..."
"What he didn't tell you is that he was supposed to get your medicine on the way home, but he went out instead with some of his friends and then he forgot to pick it up. You were really sick and your mom got upset and left the house because she didn't want you going any longer without your medicine."
I felt her tears as they soaked my chest, I fought back tears of my own as I imagined the guilt she'd been carrying around all these years, no doubt fed by him. The horror and self-loathing she must’ve lived with at the thought of being responsible for her mother’s death.
"But why does he blame me then? Why does he hate me so much?"
"It's his own guilt he's trying to hide, it was all his fault baby, never yours, you were an innocent child who was sick, whose mother did what any mother would've done. She did it because she loved you more than anything else in the world, but you didn't kill her baby, it was never your fault."
I listened as she cried her little heart out. I'd set the stage, with this knowledge she can start to finally heal from all the years of bullshit he'd fed her.
Next I'm going to help her overcome her other childhood fear, I've decided to let her help me bring down her tormentors. What better way to overcome her fear than to be instrumental in the demise of her monsters?
This way she'd feel empowered instead of helpless the way she's always felt, she can take the power back. It won't be long now. I wanted this shit over with so my Blossom could bloom.
GIDEON
After her crying jag, I cleaned her up and held her while she calmed down.
"There's something else I want to talk to you about, you can say no if you wish, but I'm hoping you accept my offer, I think it will be good for you, help you get through this."
"If you think it will be good for me, then it will be I trust you." She squeezed me, her arms wrapped around my middle, head on my chest.
Such faith in me! Where did it come from? How she was able to be around any male of the species without collapsing in abject fear was a miracle because it seemed she'd only ever known the worst of the lot.
I kissed her little head as I held her closer, what I was about to do will take a lot of strength, it wasn't always easy to face your fears, grown men and women hid from theirs for a lifetime. To ask an innocent like my Blossom to do such a thing was not easy on me either, but I wanted her to be strong. I wanted to give her her life back.
"What is it, what do you need me to do?"
"I want you to help me research the men who hurt you. I'm going to bring them to justice for what they did, I can do it myself, but I believe that if you have a part in it it might help you to overcome some of your fear."
I felt her body shake just a little so I rubbed my hands up and down her back offering comfort.
"Do you have any idea how much I love you already little Blossom?"
"A little, I mean you buy me all this stuff, you take good care of me...and you married me."
"It's more than that baby, those are just things, but this…feel my heart." I put her hand over my heart and opened her palm so it laid flat on my chest.
"This is crazy about you, it beats for you now, only you. You've made me happier than I've ever been in my life, more than I ever thought possible for someone like me. And because I love you so much and need you in my life always, I will never let anything happen to you. Do you believe me?"
"I believe you Gideon, and I love you the same. When I dreamed of my knight coming to save me, he was never as perfect as you. You're a thousand times better than any dream and I trust you and we're having a baby and I want to be happy, so yes I'll help you."
"I'm so proud of you baby, thank you." She took a deep breath and lifted her head from my chest.
"When do we start?"
"Soon, just get at least one more day of rest. It's mostly on the computer so you won't even have to move, I'll bring everything in here okay."
"Okay, what should we do now? I'm not sleepy and I don't want to watch TV." At least she didn't sound too torn up, her way of processing things floored me, it's almost like she filtered and moved on, never letting anything get her down for too long. Fucking amazing, all the same I wish I could just hand her a Kalashnikov and watch her blast the fuckers to kingdom come.