Total pages in book: 66
Estimated words: 61332 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 307(@200wpm)___ 245(@250wpm)___ 204(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 61332 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 307(@200wpm)___ 245(@250wpm)___ 204(@300wpm)
WillDive4Plants: Ok, full disclosure. I’ve totally drooled over you at our gym before. So if you need to go ahead and block me, I understand 😬
“There,” I say, sinking back against the couch cushion as if I just ran a mile. Kronk barely opens one eye, enough to scold me for making him wobble. And then I sit right straight up as my phone rings out with a notification. “Holy shit.”
RomanticSadist: LOL That’s nice of you to say, and I appreciate the offer. Will you also offer to meet and be discrete? 😉 Would be EXTREMELY nice to find just one sexy AF (which you are, btw), local, discrete-fun friend to play with. Not wanting just one time either.
I slouch down a little, wilted by his words. “Nooo,” I groan. “Not Gym Daddy. Anyone but my Gym Daddy. Please, please, please don’t be one of those guys.” I swipe back to his profile. “Says he’s single. But that could be a lie, of course. Why else would he be so adamant about the discrete thing right off the bat?”
As if he heard me, another message pops up.
RomanticSadist: But if discrete is a deal breaker, I understand as well.
I groan again. “What does that even mean? If I’m not discrete, he won’t even talk to me?” I drum my fingers on my thigh as I hold the phone in my other hand, trying to figure out what to type.
And once more, as if he’s listening in to my conversation with myself—I flip over my phone to make sure no weird light is on or something to indicate my microphone is in use—he adds:
RomanticSadist: Do you use Kik or anything? Mine is @RomanticSadistLL. But a platform to call on would be optional
I… I don’t even know what to say, what to think. I need to wrap my head around the back-to-back messages. Actually, no. They weren’t back-to-back, one after the other. It’s almost like he sent the first one, and when I didn’t respond quickly, he regretted what he said, so he backpedaled a bit. And again, when I didn’t immediately reply, it’s like he wanted to let me know he did still want to chat, no matter what my decision on the discrete thing would be.
And if that’s the case, maybe there is another reason he wants to keep him being on the app, or talking to me, a secret other than he’s not actually single.
Or maybe that’s just my wishful thinking, my desire for this man I’ve crushed on from afar to live up to what I’ve built him up to be in my head. Because if he’s not, it would be devastating. It would be like finally getting to meet your very favorite celebrity, your idol for years and years, and them being the biggest douche bag in history. I know from meeting some of the authors I once idolized that it’s the letdown of the century.
But I’m getting ahead of myself. No matter the reason, there’s nothing stopping me from keeping our conversation between him and me. I don’t need to tell anyone I’ve spoken to him at all. I’ll definitely want to tell Vi, but even if I do, she wouldn’t tell a soul if I asked her not to. And if we start to progress further than just talking about things that would be in my books, then I’ll ask what the reason for discretion is. If it has anything to do with him being in a relationship, I’ll stop everything in their tracks right then.
I blow out a breath and finally type out my reply. And then another, and another. Unable to keep my fingers from word-vomiting.
WillDive4Plants: Discrete is perfectly fine! But I’m really here to research for my book. I’ve gotten blocked by every other person I’ve tried to talk to about it. 🥺 I found this app finally after trying a couple of others, started swiping, and I saw you. I think I even squealed a little, because I knew you. 😅 Then I had an internal battle of “do I heart or not?” Then when I figured there was no way you’d heart back, I thought, what the hell. But then you did 😳 Then I was like, do I tell him I see him all the time at the gym? 🤣
WillDive4Plants: Sorry—fair warning number one: I have severe ADHD even medicated, and so I totally go off on squirrel tangents.
WillDive4Plants: Oh, and just FYI, the others blocked me apparently because they were scared I’d mention them in my book or something—plus, why waste time on me, right? But I promise I won’t.
I add the last message because I had this overwhelming fear he’d think they blocked me because I’m some crazy stalker or something. I’m doing my best not to sound like one, which is why I went ahead and confessed to recognizing him.