If It’s Only Love Read online Lexi Ryan (Boys of Jackson Harbor #6)

Categories Genre: Angst, Contemporary, Romance, Sports Tags Authors: Series: The Boys of Jackson Harbor Series by Lexi Ryan
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Total pages in book: 108
Estimated words: 103109 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 516(@200wpm)___ 412(@250wpm)___ 344(@300wpm)
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Biting her lip, she looks at the ceiling, thinking. “I might have some tequila left over from a chicken recipe I made last weekend?”

Tequila. The word washes an Easton-scented memory over my senses. Thirteen years later, and I can still recall the feel of Easton’s hot tongue on my wrist where he licked off the salt. The man is imprinted in my mind permanently. But I don’t want him to be, and the last thing I need is a drink that will bring those memories even closer to the surface. “Beer is fine.”

I follow as she heads to the fridge.

Her dark hair frames her face as she leans in to inspect their beer selection. “I have a porter, a growler of that new hazy IPA Jake won’t shut up about—oh, or we could share this bomber of blueberry sour if you want.”

“I think my boyfriend is going to propose,” I blurt.

Teagan straightens, eyes wide.

“It doesn’t make any sense, but I saw the ring.”

Teagan lets out a long breath. To her credit, she doesn’t screech, What boyfriend?

“It’s too soon. We’re not there yet, but maybe he wants to propose before I accept a job somewhere else. But I don’t know for sure, because I was a distracted mess tonight. I wanted to tell him about Easton being in town and how it means something to me.” I mess with my hair again and decide to give it up and take out the hair tie. “I was trying to do the right thing, but I didn’t know. . . I didn’t realize . . .”

She shuts the fridge. “You’re sure you don’t want that tequila?”

“Can’t. Easton memories.”

“Shit.” Teagan grabs a stool. She climbs onto it and digs through the cabinets over the refrigerator before coming out with a bottle of amber liquid. “Found this.” Of course Carter would have bourbon in the house. I’m pretty sure all my brothers keep it around. “Any objectionable memories with this?”

I shake my head. “Thanks, Tea.”

“Not a problem.” She grabs two glasses from the cabinet, pours us each a couple of fingers, and hands mine over. “Drink, and then start at the beginning.”

I take a sip, closing my eyes as the warmth from the liquor coats my throat and blooms in my chest. I’m not a big bourbon drinker, but it feels appropriate tonight. “I’m not ready to start at the beginning.”

“Okay. Then start with tonight. You’re . . . seeing someone? And it’s serious? Who is he?” I can tell she’s trying to hide it, but there’s undeniable hurt in her voice, and I feel like an ass for keeping secrets from my friend.

“I’ve been seeing someone from work.”

“For how long?”

I shrug. Do I count the first time I felt like he was flirting with me? The first time I accepted an invitation to dinner? The first time I slept with him? “I don’t even know if ‘seeing’ is the right label.” I swallow hard, shame dogging me. “We’ve been sleeping together, but we haven’t had a chance to figure out if we want it to be more than that.” It’s not exactly officially against the rules to sleep with members of your dissertation committee, but it’s certainly frowned upon. George and I seemed to have an unspoken agreement from the first morning I snuck out of his Grand Rapids apartment that we wouldn’t let what we’d done get out. Even without official repercussions, information like that could damage both of our reputations. He doesn’t need people thinking he’s a sleazy professor, and I don’t need people thinking I only made it through my doctorate because I was sleeping with the man in charge of deeming whether my work is worthy. “You’ve actually met him before. His name is George Alby.”

“But isn’t George . . .?”

“He’s the chairman of my dissertation committee.”

“Oh,” Teagan says. She takes a long swallow of her bourbon, coughing as it goes down.

“I never set out to sleep with him, and when it happened, I blamed it on the wine, too little sleep, and maybe general loneliness.” I roll my glass between my hands. “I didn’t think it would happen again, but it did. Then after the third time, it just became something we did. I’d go to his apartment for dinner after meetings, and we’d talk and end up in bed. When we went to the conference in Florida in February, I had my own room but barely spent any time in it.”

“Wow. And now you think he’s going to propose?”

I can see it in her face, the Already? The Are you really that serious? Or maybe those are my thoughts and I’m projecting. “George is great.” I swallow. “And I care about him, but because of our weird situation, we’ve never had a chance to be a normal couple. I’m afraid that if he finds out how much that ring freaked me out, I’m really going to hurt him.”


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