Total pages in book: 109
Estimated words: 104252 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 521(@200wpm)___ 417(@250wpm)___ 348(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 104252 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 521(@200wpm)___ 417(@250wpm)___ 348(@300wpm)
She blanches. I would swear the look on her face was one of guilt. However, she has nothing to be guilty of. Neither of us do.
Our mamas forced us into this. We should be able to take a step back and see if we’re what we want. I do feel a little bad as she begins to cry harder.
However, I’m not going back on this. I need to do this for myself. Seeing Cal find happiness, hearing Nicole tell him she loves him, knowing the joy they have, I want to find that for myself.
I’ll never get to do that as long as I’m with Kay. There could be some girl out there for me, but I’m missing out on that because I’m trying to force this.
Enough.
Kay sucks in a breath and nods. “Can you drop me home?”
“Yeah, no problem.”
The rest of the ride is made in silence. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. It’s time I find what I want, where I belong.
Kayleen
I thought I’d be happy when Cam broke up with me. However, I feel devastated and shocked. He has never been with anyone else. I was sure Cam had slept with other girls on campus or at away games.
“What have I done?” I sob quietly.
I feel like I fucked up something good because I wanted to have my cake and eat it too. This isn’t right, but it’s what I wanted to happen. My mama already has my wedding gown hanging in her closet.
I don’t know how I’m going to tell her this. I take a deep breath and sit on my bed. Tears are still streaming down my face.
My hands are shaking as I go to dial JR. I just need to feel better. It’s like I’ve lost more than my boyfriend. Cam is one of my best friends.
Even though I don’t think I’ve been much of a friend in a really long time. Sometimes I feel like we don’t know each other anymore.
“Hello,” JR says sleepily on the other end of the phone, pulling me from my thoughts. I can hear him moving around and then he whispers. “Kay, are you all right?”
“We broke up,” I sob.
“Wait, what? Take a deep breath. I can’t understand you.”
“Cam broke up with me. He wants to start seeing other people.”
“That’s a good thing, right? You can come to graduation with my parents now.”
“I guess so. JR, why are you whispering?”
“It’s late. I’m trying to keep my voice down.”
“For who? Where are you?”
There is a loud thud on the other end. “Fuck,” he growls. “Son of a bitch.”
“Are you okay?”
“I just ran into something and stubbed my toe. Listen, I’ll call you in the morning. We can talk then.”
“Okay, I’ll call you in the morning.”
“Ja, baby, you—” The line goes dead before I can hear the rest of what’s said, but that wasn’t the voice of any of his friends I know of.
That was a female. I sit feeling stupid and confused. We never said we were exclusive because he has always known about Cam, but I never thought about the other girls he could have been with while we were apart.
I drop my phone to the floor and place my head in my hands. I’ve imploded my life and for what? JR has been funding my lifestyle for the last three years.
With the way he spoiled me, even as I stayed with Cam, I never thought he would mess around with anyone else. I’ve been so naïve. I can’t believe I lost Cam and now I have nothing.
Moving into the center of the bed, I curl up into a ball and begin to sob. I fucked this all up so bad. I have to figure out a way to get Cam back.
I’ll give him some time to cool off and then we’ll get back together. That’s it. All he needs is time. I can give him that.
Jareil
“Ja, baby, you all right?” my mom calls as she turns on the lights and comes out of the bedroom of the hotel suite we’re staying in.
I joined her last minute on her vacation. I’ve been sleeping on the pullout couch in the common area as when I arrived the resort was fully booked for a convention or something. We head out in the morning, so we went to bed early.
“I’m fine, mom. I just banged my toe in the dark.”
“Well, what were you doing walking about in the dark?”
“Kay called crying, I didn’t want to disturb you so I was trying to move out to the balcony or something so you wouldn’t hear me.”
“Hmm, I still don’t know what you see in that girl. Why not find yourself a nice girl who’s not rumored to be dating you and another prominent athlete?”
My mother holds my gaze and gives me a pointed look. I knew this was coming soon. My mother has never warmed up to Kay.