Total pages in book: 109
Estimated words: 104252 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 521(@200wpm)___ 417(@250wpm)___ 348(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 104252 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 521(@200wpm)___ 417(@250wpm)___ 348(@300wpm)
I should have told him the truth. I had planned to. I was getting sick of hearing him call me Amina. I just couldn’t figure out how to tell him the truth.
Now, as he’s walking away from me, I know I should have just come out and said it. He said he doesn’t know me, that’s a lie. Cam knows me better than most.
“Cam,” I whisper once more.
He doesn’t hear me, and he doesn’t turn. My heart feels like it’s spilling out from my body. That’s when everything changes.
“Hey, Cam,” the dark-haired girl walking toward him calls out.
She’s pretty and tall like me. The way she rushes into Cam’s arms speaks of a familiarity some random girl wouldn’t have. She cups his face and kisses him.
I’ve never been punched so hard in my chest in real life, but this feels like I’ve been punched right in my heart by Tyson in his prime. I stumble back and wrap my arms around my middle.
I only lied about my name. Dez isn’t my boyfriend. He’s nothing to me, so I can’t say I’ve been cheating on him with Cam. However, it looks like Cam has had a girlfriend all along from the way this chick is kissing him.
Cam looks into my eyes from over her head. I nod as I bite back my hurt feelings and turn to leave. This was never meant to be.
I played myself, getting involved with a guy I knew nothing about. At least I figured it out before I did something stupid like sleep with him. Although, I did fuck up and fall in love with him.
“This is for the best,” I mutter as I head back to class for my bag.
CHAPTER 14
IWant You Back
Kayleen
I’m not surprised when Cam tugs away from my kiss, but it still hurts. After our talk last night, I thought we could work things out. I didn’t think he was going to answer my call, but I was happy when he did.
Getting to hear his voice made everything seem right in my world. He listened and made me feel better. When I woke this morning, I just wanted to see him and have that comfort in person.
That’s why I went to his apartment. When I didn’t find him there, Caleb told me Cam had a morning class over on this side of campus. It was good to see Caleb.
He seemed genuinely happy to see me as well. I came to campus, hoping I would find Cam. I almost gave up and then I saw him walking toward the parking lot.
I rushed to him, not even thinking. Now he’s pushing me away and I feel silly. I tuck my hair behind my ear and take a step back.
“What are you doing here?” he murmurs.
“After talking to you last night, I realized how much I missed you. I miss us. I thought maybe we could talk and work things out,” I say.
“Don’t you have enough going on?”
“Yeah, Cam, I do. That’s why I need some normalcy. I need something to be the way it should be. Something safe that I can count on.
“I know I can always count on you. We’re safe. I miss knowing I can climb into your arms and have a safe place that I know,” I plea.
Cam looks off in the distance for a moment, then shakes his head. I know he is mad at me, but the hard scowl on his face is throwing me off. After our call last night, I thought he had had enough time to cool off.
He looks back to my eyes and nods. His face softens slightly. I watch as it seems like a million thoughts cross his face and mind.
“Yeah, I know what you mean. Safe and familiar is something I need right now,” he says.
I break into a face-splitting smile. My heart leaps for joy. I knew we wouldn’t stay broken up. I move into his side, and we walk to his car.
Cameron
Kay is familiar. I can trust her. I was reaching for something I’ll never have.
I don’t get to choose my happiness. I never have and it seems like I never will be able to. So I might as well stick to what I know and can trust.
I know what I’m getting with Kay. I don’t second-guess myself with her because our relationship is second nature. We’re friends, we fight, we fuck, those are things I can expect from our relationship.
I could use a good fuck right about now. Something to erase Amina … wait, Maribel from my mind. I was falling for her. I just don’t understand.
“Cam?”
“What’s up?”
I glance over at Kay, fidgeting in her seat. She looks back at me and smiles. Wow, has she always worn this much makeup?
I shake the thought off. Kay is pretty and she doesn’t deserve to be compared to a fucking liar. I drop my eyes to her shirt, which is barely containing her cleavage.