Total pages in book: 35
Estimated words: 32859 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 164(@200wpm)___ 131(@250wpm)___ 110(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 32859 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 164(@200wpm)___ 131(@250wpm)___ 110(@300wpm)
She was no coward, so this morning she’d taken another shower. There was a slight pain between her thighs, but nothing too terrible. It wasn’t like she got fucked last night. One single slide of penetration, and then it was gone.
It fucking sucked, big time, and it pissed her off. Fucking asshole.
He’d not put any clothes out for her, so she wore a pair of jeans and a black shirt, and came downstairs to eat her cereal.
Still no sign of him.
She crunched her way through the bowl, wanting to throw the whole thing against the wall. Instead, she stayed perfectly calm.
“Losing your cool is never a sign of how good you are. Staying calm in spite of wanting to tear the fucking world apart, and not, is a sign of a good person.” Ben had often told her to not give in to her anger. Anger made people act irrationally. It made people say and do things they would later regret.
“How are you?” Cain asked, causing her to jerk her head up.
She looked up and saw he had changed from the clothes he wore last night.
“Are you sure you want the answer to that, or are you just going to take off like you did last night?” she asked, then scooped more of her cereal and crunched.
She didn’t hate, yet she wanted to. He’d taken off, as if her virginity was something to be embarrassed about or disgusted by. It didn’t matter now. Cain had already claimed her virginity, there was no going back.
“I acted poorly,” Cain said.
“Oh, you think? I don’t know, is that normal for guys to do? To want sex, and because it is a woman’s first time, they just panic and run off?”
“I was not expecting you to be a virgin,” he said.
She rolled her eyes. “Why? You believed your son that I was a slut.”
“The situations you have found yourself in. By your own admittance, you ended up on the streets. Trust me, I have been there and I’ve seen women and girls younger than you, only able to give up their bodies to make it through.”
Leah took a deep breath. Now she understood him a little. “I came close,” Leah said. “Just before I met Ben. I came so very close. It was why that pimp was trying to beat on me. I’d turned him down, because I couldn’t stand the thought of anyone touching me. Ben helped, and he made sure I then learned everything I could. That’s why your son didn’t stand a chance. He made sure I’d be my own person. Knowing what men are like. I’ve never wanted to be close to anyone. It’s why, until last night, I was still a virgin.” She looked at him and shrugged. “But don’t worry. I do not consider last night anything special. Trust me, I’m sure women hate it when a man realizes they’re the first and behaves in the way you did.” She lost her appetite and threw her remaining cereal away, before cleaning away her dishes. “If you don’t mind, I’m going to take a personal day.”
She’d never asked for any time off, nor had she ever needed it. The truth was, she didn’t exactly need it now, but there was no way she was going to work with him for at least the next twenty-four hours. First, she needed to put whatever happened last night behind her, and then she’d be able to move on.
It wasn’t like she ever thought about sex or what it would be like with a man. The experience or wanting the experience had never even entered her brain. There was a time she wondered if she was normal. After all, a lot of women were constantly going out on dates, hooking up with random guys, having fun, all in the name of finding Mister Right. She’d been more interested in learning to survive. She wondered what it would have been like to grow up without the worry of just surviving.
Leah knew her experiences in life were not unique. She was also aware that not everyone’s childhood was quite as wonderful as they painted in the movies. Some people got to experience it.
Pushing that negative shit out of her mind, she left the kitchen without another look at Cain. The horrible truth was, he’d broken her heart, and he hadn’t even promised her anything to begin with.
****
Cain knew he’d acted like a complete and total asshole. He didn’t need anyone telling him where he fucked up. Feeling Leah’s tight cunt last night and then hearing her scream, and just knowing as he looked into her eyes what had been the cause, he’d reacted. He hadn’t given himself time to think. He’d known what all the little intricacies meant.
Leah had been a virgin, and in his very first penetration, he’d hurt her. There was no need for a second or even a third explanation. He fucked up. Big time.