Total pages in book: 29
Estimated words: 25728 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 129(@200wpm)___ 103(@250wpm)___ 86(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 25728 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 129(@200wpm)___ 103(@250wpm)___ 86(@300wpm)
He returned some time later and sat on my side of the bed.
"Turn over on your back." He said it so gently that I didn't question it I just did what he asked. When he took my top off I started to tense up; until I felt the most amazing sensation against my breasts. He'd brought me a warm cloth to ease the strain. Wow! Who knew he could show such kindness.
"Where'd you learn this trick?"
"I called my mom, she suggested it along with some of this Aloe Vera cream."
He proceeded to press the warm cloth into my nipples soothing them and making me burn at the same time. I squirmed uncomfortably as my body reacted to his ministrations. He just looked me in the eye with no outward expression on his face, but I could see the tight rein he had on himself by the tension in his jaw. "You asked your mom about this?" I was mortified, what must she be thinking about me? First I run away now I reappear with a baby in tow. She must have a million and one questions and I didn't have the first clue how to answer any of them.
"Of course, she's a mother and the wife of a doctor, I took it for granted that she would know what to do."
I had the most relief I'd had in ages as I felt the pain ease out of my sore tissue.
"She also suggested switching sides when feeding Anthony, apparently if he feeds at the same nipple continuously it will cause soreness and discomfort." Wow, how long was that conversation? I barely had the thought before I felt his mouth cover my nipple.
Oh my.
Chapter 13
Colin
I can't believe I'm doing this I had no intentions on touching her like this. I’d only wanted to give her some comfort. I didn't like knowing that feeding my son caused her pain. And why is that Colin? Shut up.
I gave her nipple one last lick removing the bead of milk that my sucking had pulled forth. Fuck this shit is potent. I wanted so badly to finish what I started; I mean she wasn't exactly fighting me off. In fact she was writhing beneath me as though starved for my touch. I pulled away from her and sat up taking deep cleansing breaths.
I probably should've apologized, but bastard that I am I just left the room. I didn't like what the fuck was going on since I’d found them in that cabin yesterday. She wasn't acting anything like what I'd come to believe. And the things she kept saying just worked to confuse me even more.
I wandered into the nursery to look at my son, my love for him was complete, he was the only thing I was sure about in my crazy mixed up world. I knew I wasn't supposed to but I didn't really care I needed this right now, so I picked up his sleeping form out of his bed and cuddled him to my heart.
Whatever I did now would affect him as well. It wasn't just about me and Amber, he was more important than the two of us. What would he think of a father who’d destroyed his mother? How would I feel if I destroyed her? There was too much not fitting in my head. I had expected one thing and found another, but until I got to the bottom of this mess I was playing my cards close to my chest.
I think I preferred the days when I thought I hated her, at least then I was clear on where I stood, this not knowing, these doubts, were driving me insane. I wanted to believe that I'd been wrong about her; that there had been some kind of mistake, but I just couldn't see it. All the evidence I had pointed to her guilt, it's just seeing her in the flesh that dissuaded me from my oath to destroy her.
I didn't make the same mistake she had made earlier, I turned off the monitor in his room before sitting in the rocker with him cradled in my arms. It was the first time I'd really held him just to hold him. I kissed his crown, inhaling the sweet baby smell, loving the feel of him here. My beautiful son my boy.
"I promise to get to the bottom of this for your sake, if I'm wrong I will spend the rest of my life making it up to her. But if I’m not, if she's proven to be the manipulative schemer I've come to believe she is, then I will see to it that you never want for anything in this life, especially my love. But I will have to remove her from your life." I felt tears in my eyes at the thought of depriving my son of his mother, but if she were guilty then she wouldn't be worthy of that title. Not for any child, but especially not my son. I would destroy anything to keep him safe.