Total pages in book: 110
Estimated words: 103231 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 516(@200wpm)___ 413(@250wpm)___ 344(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 103231 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 516(@200wpm)___ 413(@250wpm)___ 344(@300wpm)
“But I know we can’t go back to who we were, Aleks,” I continued. “We all just want to help you, but it’s hard to know how.”
“He was my everything, Dante,” Aleks whispered.
I flinched because I was terrified my brother harbored some twisted sense of love for Parks after so many years of abuse.
“Every breath I took was at his whim, not mine,” Aleks continued. “The only thing I had was the hope that if I gave him everything he wanted, someday I’d be free. Now that that moment is finally here, it’s like I can’t move or breathe…” Aleks reached out to stroke his hand along Ace’s muzzle as the horse moved back towards us. I couldn’t help but wonder if the big animal sensed Aleks’s growing distress.
“How am I supposed to move forward when I don’t know how to take even one step without asking permission first?” Aleks asked, dejectedly.
“You’ve already taken so many steps, meu irmão,” I said gently. His eyes flipped to mine and I saw a sheen of tears in them.
“I can’t take those steps for you, but I promise you,” I whispered fiercely. “I will be at your side with every one. I’ll hold you up when you’re ready to fall and I’ll be there to cheer you on for every single one you take, no matter how big or small.”
Aleks nodded and then a broken sob tore free of his throat. He pressed his face to my chest and I eagerly wrapped my arms around him as he began crying. His sobs were raw and painful and I couldn’t stop my own tears from falling. I held onto him for what seemed like hours until he quieted against me. His tears had soaked through my shirt, but I didn’t care in the least. I was glad that dam inside of him had finally broken. But I knew there would be many more as the walls he’d built to shield himself from all the brutality he’d faced started to crumble one by one.
And I’d be right by his side, just like I’d promised.
“Do you think you might want to come and stay with me and Magnus for a while longer?” I asked Aleks as I stroked his hair.
He nodded against my chest. “Mama and Papa will be angry.”
“They’ll want what’s best for you,” I murmured, though I wasn’t sure it would be that easy.
“Even if you’re what’s best for me?” he asked. He shifted to a sitting position again. I reached out to wipe away the tears that lingered on his face.
“We’ll figure it out,” I declared. And I meant it. It was true that I couldn’t spare my brother from all the pain he was going to endure in the coming future, but I sure as hell could ease the way and if that meant playing nice with my parents, I’d make it work.
Ace nudged us both. “I think he’s kicking us out,” I said as I gave the horse a pat. “You ready to go?”
Aleks nodded and we climbed to our feet. I put my arm around him as we left Ace’s stall, closing it behind us. I spied Magnus and Nina waiting for us near the main entrance to the barn. I liked that Aleks was holding onto my waist as we walked…it gave me hope that his aversion to touch wouldn’t be a permanent thing.
“How you guys doing?” Magnus asked, his eyes full of worry.
“Good,” I said and I leaned in to kiss him. “Aleks is going to come stay with us for a while.”
A smile filtered across Magnus’s face and I felt the last bit of tension leave my body. I’d been almost certain he wouldn’t mind having Aleks be a more permanent part of our lives since I knew he cared about my brother, but I’d also known it was a lot to ask. Magnus and I were still trying to figure our own relationship out and adding a troubled teenager to the mix was bound to cause some tension. It was unavoidable. But I also knew what we had was strong enough to endure it.
“Glad to hear it,” Magnus said and he gave Aleks a gentle pat on the arm.
Aleks smiled and then looked at Nina. “Thank you for calling them.”
“You’re very welcome, Aleks,” she said softly. “I hope this means we’ll be seeing a lot more of you around here.”
He nodded. “I’d like that.”
We said our goodbyes to Nina and began heading towards the car when Aleks stopped and pulled free of my hold. He turned to face Nina again, who’d been about to slide the large sliding door closed.
“Miss Farley,” he began, but then hesitated.
“Please, it’s Nina,” Nina said kindly and then she patiently waited for him to continue. I saw his fingers go to the chain around his neck.